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Sagarmatha, surrender, and the art of letting go đď¸
I didnât think Iâd make it.
Hello, beautiful souls,
Before I begin, a gentle reminder that I created a mindfulness guide called The Path Within for those of you looking to cultivate more presence and ease in your day-to-day life. Itâs full of tools that have helped me find grounding in a world thatâs constantly shiftingâalong with personal reflections and stories from my travels. You can grab it here. I hope it supports you.
If youâd like to check out the introduction first to see if the guide is right for you, you can view it for free here.
Now, onto this monthâs reflectionsâwritten in my Notes app while I was off-grid for two weeks, trekking to Sagarmatha base camp with my friend Mel and Travel Light Adventures. Our reunion after the Camino felt so special, and of course we ended up completing another pilgrimage side by side.
(Sagarmatha, which means Goddess of the Sky in Nepali, is my preferred name over Everestâwhich was named after a British surveyorâbecause itâs considered a sacred place and a symbol of beauty. And obviously, the tallest and most majestic mountain in the world would be feminine.)

Me and Mel celebrating our arrival at Base Camp.
When I imagined this journeyâone Iâd been planning for monthsâI was fixated on a certain outcome. The experience I had turned out to be nothing like the version Iâd played on repeat in my mind. And in that difference came the lesson I clearly needed: impermanence is everywhere. How we relate to it determines so much of our peace.
I imagined clarity, triumph, and that deep, soul-awakening high that comes from doing something truly epic. But like most things in life, it didnât unfold the way I expected.
Halfway through the 12-day trek, I got violently ill with food poisoning. I was weak, depleted, and unsure if I could continue.
I cried. A lot.
I lost faith in my body and my abilities.
I had to let go of the destination, and just existâmoment by moment, breath by freezing breath.
After an extra day of rest, I was somehow able to keep going. Two days later, I made it to base camp and Kala Patthar, another mountain with stunning 360° views of Sagarmatha and the Himalayan range. And our incredible Sherpa guide, Pasangâwho has walked with trekkers from all over the worldâtold me he had never met a woman so strong, determined, and calm.
I will carry those words with me like badges of honor for a long, long time.

Nothing but huge smiles at the top of Kala Patthar at 5,545 meters (18,192 feet) watching the sun rise over Sagarmatha.
On the final day during the descent, a stone I had carried from Koh Phanganâchosen with the intention to gift someone along the trekâdisappeared. I searched everywhere, but it was gone. A final little wink from Sagarmatha. Another gentle invitation to let go.
These moments are always trying to teach us something. This one reminded me that loving something deeplyâwhether a person, a plan, or a dreamâdoesnât mean holding onto it tightly.
It means being fully in it while itâs here.
And letting it go, with grace, when itâs time.
Detachment isnât cold.
Itâs about staying open without gripping. Softening into uncertainty. Loving without needing to control.
Let me tell youâit is so hard.
But itâs such a powerful practice.
And Iâm learning that loving people deeply and letting them go with grace arenât oppositesâtheyâre partners in presence. While it hurts, itâs also what helps us grow. Makes us softer. Stronger. Wiser.
When successfully embodied, detachment makes you unfuckwithable. (My favorite word for that sacred kind of resilience.)
Each adventure brings me closer to myselfâwith open eyes, an open heart, and a deep trust in the magic of what continues to unfold in my life.
Detachment is a process, my friends, and itâs certainly not a linear one.
I hope you can make someone smile today,
Holly x
P.S. You can grab The Path Within, my mindfulness guide here â¨

P.P.S. Stay tuned for some more exciting Camino-related stuff coming soon âşď¸